karalovesallthegirls:

Kara is very, very tired. Do you know how exhausting it is to regulate every single movement and interaction? Since the day she landed she’s been taught to tread softly, to be unexceptional, to seem meek even when she’s strong. It was for her own safety and the Danvers really meant well, but it’s hard for a 13 year old to be taught “never be yourself” and not have that fuck her up.

She thought being supergirl would be freeing, that strength instead of feigned weakness would lift some of the burden off her soul. But she’s not genuine then either, not when all people see is her family’s shield and what they think it represents. every word and action has to be carefully planned so that she can represent her family with honor. And now that they can benefit from it, those same people who for years tried to silence her now have her at their beck and call.

And performing a role at all times can be so terribly draining. Living in a constant state of emotional exhaustion can make it real hard to even want to keep going.

Kara doesn’t feel like a person most of the time. She feels like a performer, and she’s one who is tired of playing the same role. The problem is there doesn’t seem to be any other role available for her to pick and so every day it gets a little heavier, and every day she thinks less about changing characters and more about just leaving the performance all together.