randomthingsthatilike123:

There is a very specific way I want to see Kara’s identity
reveal and the very last thing Lena
learns is kara’s name, not the first. For James, all there is to his Guardian
reveal is that he is Guardian—sure there’s maybe a few details about his suit
specs and maybe what might have motivated him to do this, but that’s it. But
for Kara, revealing that she’s Supergirl means so much more than revealing she’s
a mere superhero. There’s only ever been one person that Kara’s told her identity
to (Winn), and that was when she was going off the rush of adrenaline and the
high of flying again. Kara was told all her life she has to hide and blend in—sure
some people have figured out that Kara is Supergirl but none of them know that she
is Kara Zor-El, not simply a human with powers but a Kryptonian always, someone
who is a refugee and has been hiding for the past decade—even when she’s
Supergirl, she’s still hiding. The last of her world–she’s always afraid.

I want Kara as Supergirl to tell Lena about Krypton, about her religion,
about Rao, about the way Argo city looked way up high in the crystal
towers, the songs her people would sing, the way it feels to be the last speaker
of a dying language, what it was like to live a childhood without powers only
to gain them, the color of her mother’s eyes, how the one thing she wants more
than anything in the world is just one I love you—just one more hug. How it
felt to see that message from her mother and seeing her face for the first time
in more than a decade, how she tries to remember the sound of her father’s voice
and how there are days she can’t remember what it looked like when they laughed
because she has her mother’s AI but it’s
not the same.

I want her to tell Lena what it was like to have to pick
herself up when everyone was gone and
there was no hope of any of them coming back except Astra did. Astra did—and she
never got a chance to hug her. She never got a chance to let her aunt know the
person she was able to become. I want to see Kara talk about her absolute terror
of people experimenting with Kryptonite, about how one experiment gone wrong
resulted in being forced to act on every bad thought and impulse she ever had,
fully cognizant after of what happened and understanding all too well what Sam
is going through on a level humans can’t—it’s not quite the same, but it’s
closer than anyone else can understand.

Kara talking about her anger
with her parents, how maybe they could have saved their planet and their
race (echoing back to that scene with her mother’s AI could Astra have saved us?—she was a criminal—but was she right) and how that anger also wars
with her guilt—guilt that saving Krypton means that she would never come to Earth
and she wouldn’t trade that, we see that when Kara gives up Krypton and in the
Black Mercy episode she would choose Alex every time.

I want to see Kara tell Lena the only reason why she ever
revealed herself and saved that plane was because she would do anything for the
people she loves and won’t lose
another person she cares about. That choosing to be the light in her friends’
life is an ever constant choice—it’s not always easy but god does Kara try, tries not to let her anger and
loneliness and grief consume everything that she is I want Kara to tell Lena
her name is Zor-El—her family’s
legacy, about el mayarah.

And then, when Kara
is finally ready and no longer scared, I want her to tell Lena, fully knowing
that she is echoing that conversation from so long ago and all its implications, those flowers remind me of my mother.