“You were in love with her, weren’t you?”
It’s not a question Bellamy was expecting now, although it was one he was expecting. He was all ready for it earlier, in the first few months. Sometime between his looking like an open wound and his learning to hide it. And he was expecting it from Echo or Murphy, someone blunt, who wanted him to just get over it. But it’s been over five years, they’re still stuck up here, and he wasn’t expecting anyone to ever bring her up again, not until they were on the ground and it was his job to tell her mother what happened.
He especially didn’t expect it from Raven, and especially not when they’re curled together, naked and sweaty and sated. It’s been a long time coming, the two of them, and he was ready to bask in the afterglow, a much better one than they got the last time they did this.
He’d like to protest, to say the question is unfair and unnecessary, but he doesn’t have to ask who she means, and that’s probably reason enough for her to ask.
Still, it’s easy to answer, easier than it would have been when Clarke was still a part of his life. It’s easy to love ghosts; no one will ever expect you to do anything about it. “Yeah.” He kisses Raven’s hair. “That doesn’t have anything to do with this. Us.”
“I know. Just curious. We all figured you did.”
“You loved her too, right?”
“Yeah, but I didn’t want to date her.”
“Really? I feel like you guys would have been good together.”
She laughs, and it’s the strangest thing to be laughing about, but this is the good part. The two of them talking about their friend, whom they both loved, in their own ways. “Wouldn’t have wanted to get between you two.”
“That would have been fun too,” he teases, and she leans up to kiss him, and he’s not an open wound anymore, not really.
A part of him is always going to be bleeding, but that’s fine. As long as he’s alive to bleed.
The 100, Bellamy/Clarke/Raven (Bravenlarke? whatever). Bellamy and Raven got together on the Ark, so when they return to Earth and find that Clarke is still alive, the answer is obviously OT3.
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